Hello my lovelies.
So, this year, October 12th, I will be turning 29 years old. In my mind, I feel like my life is practically over. But I know that isn't true. If I live until I am 85, that's still another 55 years! I suppose the dread comes from accepting my youth will be officially in the past when I turn 30. More so, I also believe that the dread is largely because I've had so many dreams and goals that I wanted to complete by the time I reached 30, and yet most of them I haven't even started.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about my life and where I want it to go. My illnesses are slowly getting better, and right now I am seeing a Naturopath and she says she is confident she can help me. Regular doctors are just so useless. They are only trained to treat symptoms, not root causes. I'm tired of fighting and fighting with doctors to take me seriously. Now that I am seeing a Naturopath, I have hope again that I will be able to get better AND have a life finally.
With that being said, I've been digging deep down to find out what I really desire. What I NEED to do to fulfill and accomplish my REAL dreams. What I've discovered is that I have a love for several things. Firstly I need to CREATE. And not only create, but be creative about what I am making. Secondly, I need to be really good at something. I'm a very by the book person. I am obsessed with doing things the RIGHT way first, before I make it into something personal. Third, I need to tell stories. I thrive off of this and inventing characters. Forth, I love helping, and inspiring others. It makes me feel so good about myself when I can do that. And lastly, I am SUPER into Asian/Japanese cultural. Since I was a young girl, I have always been drawn to Asian things. I always liked the Asian boys, loved the Japanese language, the architecture, etc etc. For the most part, as a child, I only ever really watched anime. I fell in love with Astroboy when I was 3, and ever since anime was my life. Though I'm nothing near an Otaku anymore, I can't help but adore the style of animation in Japan, and want to become a Manga-ka SO BAD.
With all these things in mind, I did some internet research about animation schools in Japan. To my surprise there have been many people who have gone to Manga school. From there, I began to look up cost and the like, and post secondary education in Animation in Japan costs close to the same amount as it does in the USA. For me, it would be about $25,000-$30,000 a year for 3-4 years. On top of that, there is living costs... So needless to say, going to Japan for school would be a lot of money... However, I DO have a way I could make enough to move there, WITH my pets and husband. It would take hard work, and a few years to reach that point, but I know I could do it.
I REALLY want to be a Manga-Ka. But I want to learn how to become one, and all the ins and outs of the industry from the Japanese people FIRST. I feel that creating manga in North America, or anywhere else in the world by just internet research alone is more like "copy-catting" than making authentic comics from Japan. And that may be okay for some people, but not for me.
Comics are really where I want to go. But I also want to be able to make the comic myself, rather than be assigned to one task. Though, I'd enjoy being an inkist, if I had to choose. WHICH, is also why I adore manga. The inking. My favourite. Not only do I love the look, but I love to ink as well.
Initially, I've been trying to get better to go to art school here in my city. But after I researched Manga schools, I realized in order to go to both schools, it would be SUPER costly and take up the next 10+ years of my life. I don't want to be 40 something when I release my first manga. >_> So, because the animation school I am thinking of going to is a 3-4 year program, plus it covers MORE than JUST manga, I figure that they will also teach things like anatomy and such as well. That will cut down the years to a max of 6, compared to 10+. Also, if my husband comes, he can do mission work, which he would love to do (aka help out the Japanese people with whatever-volunteer type stuff) AND I can share my materials with him, and he can become my manga assistant, which he says he'd also love to do. PLUS, being away for 3-4 years after you are married, is pretty hard on both spouses. I'd also miss that much time of my cat's lives, and I'd hate that.
I spoke to my husband about all this, and he says it sounds really awesome and exciting. So him and I are going to get down to planning and working to make this all happen. In the meantime, I'm going to be working my small business to save up the money for us to make this trip.
Many years ago I actually decided I wanted to move to Japan, but I gave up on that because of all the stigma around white people there, and their "male" pleasing culture. But I'm married, and that type of support really outta come with me.
So that's my plan for now. Hopefully it will all work out the way I hope!
All I gotta do now is learn Japanese fluently! HA HA HAaaaaa... Ah well. I wanted to do that anyways!
Until next time guys! "I'm 25% more handsome!"-Handsome Jack's Doppelganger