Meadoujin

Hello everyone.

A lot of stuff has happened since my last journal. I was a victim of an art scammer and was screwed over by a dealership... So as it stands, if I don't make an extra $600 the bank will sue me and I may end up losing all my things and ending up homeless....

I don't usually ask for things like this, but I need help. I am opening these cheap commissions in order to make that money asap. I have 3 senior cats to take care of, and I need medication to even drink water... I'm in a really bad situation...

I know that it is just before Christmas and a lot of people are struggling right now. I am so terribly sorry to ask this... Forgive me.

If you are at all interested in getting some art from me, here are the prices:

Please comment below to order. You may order as many of them as you like.

Form:

Type: (sketch/inked/color)

Characters: (links to images)

Expression of Character: (If this is important to you)

Once I confirm your commission, please send payment to: eviemaylin@gmail.com

Thank you so much.

Hey everyone. I just wanted to take time to write a journal about what is going on with me and my art, if anyone is curious. Firstly, I think it is important to talk about the direction that DA is taking. I'm aware that a lot of people have left this site, because of the AI generation. I'm not going to get to into the debate or my perspective on it. For the most part, I'm just unsure of how many of you are still here.

If you wish to see my art but no longer want to support DA, you can find me on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter. I know Twitter is having major issues as well and a bunch of people are leaving there too. But just search up my name. You can use #meadoujin and locate me other places.

Secondly, I want to address the requests I did for people years ago.

It has always been my intention to share them in a more polished way, and I still plan to do this. I am so sorry for the wait. My life has just... been chaos and I haven't had the chance. They are on my to do list.

Third, as some of you may have noticed, I have uploaded a couple of commissions lately. I actually have a few of these to do and they are taking up the majority of my art time. When it comes to juggling my health and day to day needs, artwork can be hard to fit in. So for the most part, the commissions are what need to take priority.

Currently, I have 11 pieces that I owe people. So those will be my focus for the most part.

This leads me to my next point. FINALLY, I have regained a lot of my passion and drive for drawing again. It has taken YEARS, and I mean YEARS of healing, self discovery, and God's help for me to get here. And, in all honestly, I am STILL working on it. Which leads me to the part about my life and my health.

I'm not going to explain it all, unless enough people request it, but last year was a nightmare for me. My stress levels were so high I developed chest pains so bad that it would put me out of commission for days at a time. My previous Landlord completely screwed me over by allowing a smoker to move in; in the suit below me. He was smoking 3 packs of cigarettes a day and my already bad health, just tanked. On top of that, I found out that I have ADHD and began to take medication, which also caused issues because it triggered my chest pains to begin with. My Kickstarter did not go as I hoped, and the city I lived in became SO expensive, I couldn't afford to move out to get away from this second hand smoke. My car basically shit the bed around the same time I realized my only option was to move 3 hours away to find a place a could afford and in order to do that, I had to get a new car...

While I was frantically trying to find a place to rent, being super sick, and packing, I discovered that I probably had Autism... My grandmother's health also began to drop very rapidly and she ended up passing away 2 days after I moved into my new place. So I had to juggle visiting her, and then her funeral along with everything else... And this is just the VERY VERY VERY summed up version... There is way more, but we'd be here forever if I tried to explain it all.

I've done a lot of self reflecting and looking at my struggles and quirks as someone who is Neurodivergant, and who also has a TON of medical obstacles. This has eased the frustration I've had with myself; my entire life. In doing so, it has allowed me to accept who I am, and unchain myself from the ridiculous and toxic expectations that have been imposed on me. Which has freed up my mind to be more creative again.

The main thing I am getting at here is that I have lost almost 26 years of my adult life to illness, disabilities and abuse. I'm behind, but more importantly, I am "backed up'. All the things I would have drawn, would have written, should have been able to do over the last 26 years has been released and is now banging at the front of brain like Wal-Mart opening their doors for a Black Friday sale. Everything is trying to get out at once and it is overwhelming me. I'm genuinely struggling to figure out where to put my attention. My ADHD makes it hard to swap tasks, so once I start on a drawing, nothing else exists until that roller coaster comes to a stop on its own. So it is difficult to juggle art studies, commissions, fun art, writing, coloring, story planning, and fiddling with various mediums... DX

I'm not even sure what I am after by telling you this. I suppose I just need to get it out of my head. I just don't know what to do about it. How do other artists manage all of these things? I want to get better, but considering I have $0 of income right now, I need to work on these commissions so that I can eat... It's all so much. Please don't take any of this as me seeking pity or attention from anyone. I just genuinely struggle with a lot of things Neurotypical people seem to do naturally. I'm just not sure how to manage it all... >_> All I feel I can do, is ask that you continue to be patient with me on this journey of mine. I am drawing a lot more nowadays, and that makes me feel good, but I also feel that I'm not drawing enough...

Either way, I will be uploading more, though I can't provide a schedule and I'm sorry for that. But in the very least, I have finally made it to a point in my life where I can do all the things that I have been wanting to do, and posting about. I've come such a long way and I'm hoping this will actually be the time I say "I'm finally taking my art seriously" and mean it.

Anyway. Thanks for reading everyone. Stay awesome. Ja ne.

After two months of work, and CONSTANT obstacles, I am finally able to launch this Kickstarter! I have been so busy making the images for the Kickstarter, and the rewards for the campaign that I haven't been able to post really anything on Deviant Art! So my apologies for that!

Thank you to all the people who have supported me over the years and have expressed interest in supporting me as I attempt to raise the funds to get this book published! You are amazing!

If anyone else is interested here is the link to my project! All shares and support is appreciated! And regardless, I appreciate you!

Thanks so much! Remember to follow your dreams dear artists. I'm routing for you!

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/unicornbook/once-upon-a-unicorn-a-tale-of-self-discovery?ref=user_menu

Boy oh boy. It has been a long last two months. 😫

When I first decided to do this Kickstarter, I didn't realize how much work I had to put into presenting the project. I'm sure that sounds silly to some of you, but the last time I was on Kickstarter was years, and years ago. I scrolled through projects, but because of my financial situation, due to poor health, I really couldn't support anyone. So I left the site because it just got me depressed.

Naturally, things have evolved since then, but I wasn't aware of just how much. I had to completely put aside the artwork, for the rest of my book, in order to create artwork for not only the Kickstarter, but ALSO for the reward tiers. That came with the additional hurdle of finding prices to create all these things too!

I cannot express to you all how incredibly FRUSTRATING it has been to find shipping costs. Everything is nuts right now. So much more expensive than it should be. From companies straight up ghosting me, to others not being equipped to deal with crowdfunding, it has been a NIGHTMARE trying to get answers.

Initially, I was trying to juggle fun art with 'business' art, but I am just completely unable to do that. I am sorry I haven't been posting much here. But I do have a few more fun pieces I made that I can submit.

I'm on the FINAL stretch of this. I just need to create a couple more entries into the 'Story' portion of the project, and I'm waiting on a fulfillment company to get back to me on costs. Once I have all that in order, I can finally submit my project for review and get it posted.

Hopefully I can do that next week, and the fundraiser can be live by the 15th of July. I've worked really hard on this book, and the message going into it. I still have a lot of work left, but this is what I am passionate about. I just can't continue to work as a pet sitter with my deteriorating health... I need to go into business for myself and work at a pace that I can handle. Especially since applying for disability is a pain and probably impossible because all my diagnoses are "manageable" SEPARATELY. Ugh. Having 8 things to contend with at the same time isn't easily managed. For the record. Thanks Canadian government. >_>

Regardless, I won't let that hold me back. I want to make a difference in the world and follows my passions. So here we go! Thanks for taking the time to read. I will let you all know when the Kickstarter has gone live! This is a pretty special time for me because I have never endeavored to follow my dreams like this before. I've had so many toxic people in my life, discouraging me, that I never took that leap of freedom and healing. But NOW I am going to!

I appreciate each and everyone of you. Remember that you matter, and you have incredible worth and purpose in this world. Regardless of what anyone else says, or thinks, about you. Go out there and show'em you are more than their opinion. We are not chained to their selfish perceptions! We've got this, together, with others who see our value!

Sincerely,

Mea同人

(Meadoujin)

Hello everyone! Long time no see! Hey look! A journal that isn't labelled update! Haha!

So, I feel kind weird writing this, but I wanted to get it out here as a record.

As some of you know, and some of you don't, I am a Christian. I know there is a lot of hurt and pain around the topic of Christianity, but I encourage you to see this journal for what it is, which has nothing to do with criticizing anyone.

The main reason for me posting this is that I made a deal with God (Yahweh to be specific) about creating content. Due to my unhealthy upbringing, God has tasked me with creating children's books in order to encourage young ones as they face the trials of life. Most of my books are based around things that I wish I had been told, or taught to value when I was a kid. Especially when it comes to my self esteem and self worth.

In truth, I fought God, more than I wish to admit, over whether or not I was a good enough artist to be writing children's books. As a Perfectionist (which I am working on), I hold myself to unrealistic standards... which paralyzed me with fear of failure for the last 3 years. My heart wanted to follow through and trust Him, but I felt unworthy. I wanted to practice my art before I attempted to illustrate this book, but the fear of being stuck, and not improving (which is a whole other story), kept me from proceeding... Recently, I just discovered that I have ADHD (more so ADD) and have been seeing a Psychiatrist about unraveling the unhealthy brainwashing, level of perfectionism, and unrealistic life expectations that have been forcefully knitted into my subconscious.

However, I am not here to talk about my mental health. If people want the story on that, feel free to ask and I can make a journal (or video about my experiences). Right now, I am here to declare a couple of things.

Firstly, this is going to come off as strange, and seemingly pointless. It may come off as if I am bragging or that I am a crazy person. You don't have to believe me, and that's not really what this is about. Currently, this journal is just to have a record and date attached to a few statements for use in the future.

Secondly, I am sorry this is so long!

HERE IS THE SCOOP.

God has promised me a few things as incentive so that I will trust in Him, and step ahead in faith regarding my art, books, and future content creations.

1. God has promised me that He will increase my art skills 5-6x faster than the average artist... (because I am so far behind in this area due to struggling a lot in my life)

2. My children's book will do really well, and I will be very well known for them. They will help and impact hundreds of thousands of people.

3. I will be attracting a great deal of support with my stories, and as long as I am a good steward with what He blesses me with, I will have more money than I know what to do with. (Hoping to use this to help a lot of people and animals out)

4. I post publicly all of these things that He has promised me, BEFORE He starts showcasing me and my creations to the world. He wants there to be a record of me talking about the things He has promised in advance so that others may see how much He cares and wants to prosper His children. Or anyone for that matter. He blesses people all the time, regardless of whether or not they love or believe in Him. But His power goes extra into those who love, have a relationship with and trust Him.

Again, I want to state that this is really awkward for me to type out. I am not usually the kind of person to pop on the internet and start going on and on and on about my relationship with God. But, this is part of the deal He has made with me, and I am following through.

I apologize if this has made anyone uncomfortable. That is not my intention. And a special apology to anyone out there that has been hurt by someone who claimed to be a Christian, and used it to justify their narcissism or abusive, controlling behavior.

If you have actually managed to read this whole journal to the end, WOW. Thank you! Extra appreciation out to you! Much, much love especially.

I will be making another journal next week when my kick starter launches for my very first children's book! Pretty nervous! BUT, I genuinely hope that it helps all those out there that have been made to feel like they are worth less, or not as good as those around them. I want you to know that you have value. Regardless of what you think of yourself.

Thanks so much for reading! See you in the next journal!

Bye friends!